7/3

I got my china dresses back yesterday from the tailor.
Just a week ago, I bought them.
I have always wanted to have tailored china dress. I loved the color and pattern that I saw, so I ended up getting 2.
Thinking about my new china dress before I recieved the real thing made me happy.
Now I have them with me I would love to wear them someday somewhere, but all of a sudden I lost that strong interest for my china dress.
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Just 2 more days before I return to Montreal.
I felt the time is always too short to get anything done during my stay in Taiwan.
Too many people I want to spend my time with.
Once I got too comfortable around my family, I just don't feel like going anywhere...
But I have to go back...
grahh...I am so sick of moving around. Sometimes I really want to settle down somewhere, but no place is yet perfect.
In Taiwan I have my family but limited freedom; in Vancouver the living standard is good but too much boredom; in Montreal I've got freedom but shitty winter; in Japan I have my new career but I could never blend in as a foreigner.
I don't know if I am living this way because I chose to, or because it's my destiny to live like this. I have people around me envy me having all these flexibility to live like this, but I can't be satisfied. I want to develop long term friendships and close friends around me; a real lover and stable relationship; gathering with family/ relatives; a comfortable place to live in and decorate my place without considering about moving every year.